The Inner Pollock

"A happy life consists of tranquility of mind." - Cicero

My daughter loves color. She loves to paint, and draw, and just color. And she has managed a rare feat. She has kept her internal critic turned off. She sees everything she creates as wonderful. I love that ability. Because everything she creates is wonderful. This is one of her masterpieces. She likes to channel Jackson Pollock on the computer.

I think too often we allow the inner critic to hold sway over our lives. To tell us our home isn't nice enough, or our job isn't good enough, or our car isn't trendy enough, or what have you. I think the critic doesn't matter unless we let it matter. Shouldn't it be more important to have a job that supports your lifestyle then what car you drive? Are we really better people if we have better things?

And I fight this battle everyday. I want a better phone (I love my Blackberry, don't get me wrong, but I want an iPhone!). I want nicer furniture. I want a convertible. I want a better paying job with a more prestigious title. I want!

But I need to remember what I have. A great husband who likes to work around the house. Great kids who love attacking me with hugs when I get home from work. Family willing to support me and my decisions. Friends who stand by me. A beautiful house that's worth what we paid for it. A good paying job allowing me some luxuries, like a Blackberry. I have a lot. I am truly blessed.

I don't think Jackson Pollock listened to critics when he set out to paint. He painted what he felt. And he liked what he painted. I need to be more like Jackson Pollock.

Just not while painting the garage, I don't need paint swirls, or splotches, or dots all over the floor. Although, it might be fun to get out a canvas and drizzle some paint with my kids!

Crane Update:

I still have them. I know, I'll send them soon. And I didn't fold any tie dye guys yesterday. Too busy catching up on my crochet. I may have a third of the stripy guy done. And I have another afghan I need to mail.

Enough of me rambling, go see the world! Find some joy! Peace!